Letter 18 - going back to church

     I actually did nothing but sleep these 5 days, I did play VrChat, but I was too lazy to play that I only got online for two days. Most of the time I just sleep. There's that one day I slept for hours a day. And the other time I'm phoning my friends on game on Discord, goofing and joking around.

    But there's that one important thing I did, I went back to church on Saturday, it's been 3 months I left the church, cause I have no time to go to cram school (my math RIP) that I have to leave God and go study math on Sunday. Ever since I left church I got more and more depressed about things, and one time I got so depressed at night I woke up in the middle of the night, I saw a ghost standing next to my door, she's really tall and has long hair, can't really see her face tho, cause it's dark. When I turned on the light to see if I just mis saw things, she's gone, I prayed and then turned off the lights and she's gone forever. Since then I started to worry about so much about myself and got really really depressed, I worried about my future job, husband, and Universities. And I was scared to see her again in the night too, tho I know my lord will always be there looking after me, I shouldn't be afraid, but I still... After going to church somehow I felt safer, I know god has already planned everything for me, cause he loves me, and he is always there watching me, so that the ghost can't hurt me, and as for my depression I think it's healed. Like mom used to tell me, our god is a great healer. And now I just feel really good :)