Letter 20 - Oof Scores +Scary Stuffs+Something+Get+Make Ups

Oof Scores

  My parents got the report card of my first semester... I pissed them off...

I know to achieve my goal, I will have to work harder, especially on math, which I got 38 out of 100 :( 

If I continue to be lazy, I'm gonna fail History, Math, and Geography...

I'm not angry that they got mad of my score, and I'm not surprised that I got bad grades.

I got pretty sick before the exam started, and throughout the whole exam I was so sick that I was vomiting air (cuz I try my best not to eat food) and something a bit bitter. (I suppose it's my bile, I'm not sure tho) And also I had diarrhea...

But I don't blame them cuz I didn't prepare for the tests this time...

And I was kinda happy cuz I got 78 on civics, which I thought I would have failed. I took sick for an excuse for myself to not prepare for math, physics, history, and civics. (btw I did pretty good on physics)

but anyway I will study really hard for the next time.

AHH Ghost

   I saw something scary during night time, been missing church a lot recently, have to improve math, but that's not right, should always put god in the first place.

I live on the third floor of an apartment. Recently, someone died at the second floor, they are Buddhism and they had some ppl reading incantations, and doing stuffs, sticking weird stuffs at ppl's door.

  I woke up at 3 am in the middle of the night for no reasons, but stared at my door, a girl standing right there, tall, 170-175 cm, Sadako, very long hair and pale white dress, not showing it's face. My first thought, is she my sister, not suppoese to be that tall. My second thought, why is she soooo tall. My third thought, did i mis look? (putting blankets up covering my eyes and put it down again, it's still there) My forth thought, should I feel scared? (started feeling scared) My fifth thought, pray. (prayed )My sixth thought, should turn on the lights and put on my glasses and go check it out. (did it, disappeared) Went back to bed and turned off the lights, looking from the same angle without glasses, not there, it's gone.

A week after, my mom said she wants to take me back to church, I told her I wanted to go, but I haven't told her what I saw. Another week later, told her about this and she prayed for me :) She told me she had a weird dream a week ago, my sister, my mom and I were walking in a forest, both holding mom's hands, but suddenly, my mom went to a place with a lot of smokes and they found me lost, and they started to call out my name, then she got up, and she thought something bad might have happened to me (but she didn't tell me about this before going to church)...so she asked me if i wanted to go to church, and I said yes, i think i need to.

My mom had also seen ghosts but not in human shapes, but like black smokes blinding her way.

but after becoming a christian she stopped seeing things.

I thought seeing the ghost is also one of the reasons why I got sick.

Anyway, now I pray everyday.

Relationships renewing

 Ok, I know u r probably thinking I'm the girl who plays guys but no, Ryan told me distance isn't gonna work out,it's too hard for him, so I respect him and let him go. It really broke my heart. And I got depressed and U know what happened...started saying weird stuffs like i hate the world and whatever.

A week after I met another guy, also on vrchat, I told him things that happened, he told me vrchat is only a game, not a a dating website, I said yep I know.

We became friends and started sharing secrets together, one day I was bored and ask him do Americans like to adopt kids, and he said he doesn't think so, but he does want to adopt, I said wtf, me too, and then we started to know each other better and we are so alike somehow, we can't even believe how, like I'm an Asian , he's an American who lives in California. He and I both thought about becoming a vegetarian, and also want two kids, older one a boy and younger one a girl, a pet dog, all being adopted, and sex after marriage, and are both Christians :) Where can I find me a better husband, now we are together for a month already, btw he's two years older than me. Sometimes we talk about how we met, I was joking on vrchat calling him gay, he's telling me vrchat isn't a dating website, never thought we could be like a match. He's like a really nice guy, but with a broken family, his parents got divorced n live separately, cause her mom cheated on his dad, but he's from his dad and mom, now he lives with his dad, but his mom visit from time to time. Sometimes we talk about marriage, I asked him what should we say if our children ask where did we meet, he said maybe we should keep it a secret or just tell them, I told him we should tell them, yep, children, me and daddy met on vrchat, I know, wow, but I was lucky to get your daddy, very lucky :) cause we shouldn't lie, we are Christians, he agrees. But he said maybe when introducing me to his parents irl, he would tell them we met in school first, and Ill say the same thing, or else my parents won't agree to our marriage and his parents would think he's weird, like U met each others on the internet???!

And this time I think it's gonna work out for us, we are praying for our future from time to time. btw, I call him Izek or my BOI, but his real name is Isaac (he likes the izek spelling), he calls me Doris. And my boi is a Mexican American, he is cute with glasses and hot n handsome without glasses, I love both versions of him tho.

The only unsatisfying thing is our timezone, he got home and I went to school, the only time that I can phone him is at 6:30 am in Taiwan. When I finally get home, he's sleeping. Got 30 mins to phone for each day, and he's kinda shy and have a low confidence cuz he used to be very short, so he doesn't wanna do face time yet.

And also remember Ryan, he actually got me so depressed that I was thinking about not going for boys anymore and losing trusts on boys, and I once thought I was a lesbian... But nooooo, I'm straight. STRAIGHT! ok, anyway i walked through a whole lot of stuffs with Izek, he healed me, my broken heart n stuff, he's a nice n warm guy, who cares about me, and he's kinda funny, n he told me i'm a funny n nice girl too. He told me not to send nudes in relationships, cuz he won't send it back and also we r Christians we don't do that. Sometimes we have dreams of being with each others, he had one we were shopping together, I had one facetiming him, and another one trying to get on a train to meet him. He is PERFECT, my Izek, if only U get to know more about him, u will see, he's like the good boy out of the good boys, and also really mature but cute.

Flying Doctor

The main actor - Victor - Patrick
The main actress - Lucy - Doris
I've got the main actress woah, that is something I've never expected, I always thought it's gonna be Candy, cuz she always wanna be the main actress, but woah dunno y i got that, perhaps because i can do great flirting voice act. I showed it to Izek and practiced it before doing the actor-n-actress-interview, And it worked out really well, also I read it to izek on phone, he likes my Lucy voice. But I also told him I'll be flirting with another guy during the first part of the play, and also holding Patrick's hands, I tell him to not worried tho, So he said ok, cuz it's just a play, and also, me n Izek had a deal, whoever wants to break up with each other first is gay :)

learning to put on make-ups

  Allison taught us how to do make up.

But I got very pink lips,so when I try putting pink lipsticks ppl said it looks awful and scary, no red, no pink, no orange. So I went to find the colors that fit me. Glad I found two. I was going to try black, but I didn't, but one day I think I will.

It turned out to be golden and orange pink.

orange pink,actually look a bit pinker.

pure gold, actually look a bit golden.

which one do u prefer Tim?

Or u want black for me...?